Monday, April 29, 2013

Waiting is Hard

This waiting stuff is difficult for me. I am a planner (to the extreme sometimes). I like to have my ducks in a row, ya know? I like to know the Who, What, When, Where, Why, and How's of my life/future. Yet, here I sit with a big ole' ? staring at me. I don't like question marks when it comes to my future....they bug me.

I am LOVING the time at home spent with my little girl. She is enjoying it too. I know that when , if?, no when I get a job that this time will not be there; and yet I am still wanting to know what my future holds. 

I mentioned before that there is a possible 3rd grade spot at the school I long-termed at. I am just waiting patiently  (not really, more like stalking my e-mail several times a day) for the interview. While waiting, I have been stalking 3rd grade blogs, and filling a file on my desktop with all things third grade. I know it seems silly when I don't have the job yet....but it helps me feel like I am doing some sort of planning. It has worked so far, to keep my nerves and ambitious ideas at bay (and busy). Now, however, I feel like it is not enough. I need to be more prepared (for a job I don't even have! I know, I am a spaz). Sigh.

So, what did you do while waiting for your permanent spot? How did you bridge the working everyday on school,student teaching, lesson plans, grades, etc. (and for me it continued into a long-term sub. position) to the nothingness of waiting?  

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

The road to good intentions.....

Well, I had intended to make this a great blog. I wanted to post throughout my journey as a student, a graduate, and then as I became a teacher. Hmmm, you can see how well that turned out. I am horrible. 

Where I am now...

Toward the end of my student teaching, I was asked to interview for a long-term sub. position at another school. It was for a first grade classroom, and would start in Jan. (I finished student teaching in November). How perfect! It was almost like I would pick up where I left off. I got the job and I LOVED it! There were some bumps along the way, but I handled them well. I began to love the students and love the school. I received lots of praise by many of the staff as they saw how I dealt with issues that came up (as they always do). Some outside sources were in the room to observe a student and they though I had been teaching for years (woohoo!). 

The position ended the first week of this month and I must say it was hard to say good-bye. Erasing my name off the board felt so final. Then I came home and was left with a "now what?" feeling. I had been so used to grading papers, writing lesson plans, creating centers, and looking for new ideas every weekend. I had been doing that since I started student teaching in August. I was left with nothing to do. 

I hope for a permanent position next year, but without knowing what grade it is hard to plan. I feel antsy. All of these ideas and they just bounce around my head waiting for an outlet.

The principal has asked me to interview for a 3rd grade position. At first I was terrified freaked out nervous about the idea, I have spent so many years in K, 1, and 2. However, I am excited at the possibility now. I have to wait a couple of weeks for the interview, but I am hopeful. I must say, the wait is so hard!. I do not do well with unknowns. I like to have a plan. Waiting is hard.

So, in the meantime, I am finding and reading as many 3rd grade blogs as I can find.....just in case (fingers crossed).